22 Oct Restless adrenaline seeker – help!
It’s been two weeks since returning home from Israel. After placing second in a mountain bike stage race, my adrenaline is back to normal and so is my appetite– not eating every two hours whatever comes across my face. The amount of food I was putting away was pretty impressive!
But something is wrong with me. I want to pack up again. A former writing/professor friend of mine once asked: “Is there some kind of psychological condition for wanting to travel so much?” Most likely. And yes, I got it bad.
Then, the other day while teaching travel writing, we were discussing a story about Iran, one of my students said that our culture is obsessed with highs. “We’re always looking for the next thing and can’t sit still.” I’ve known this for a long time, this nomadic angst.
But I notice it in other ways: when I drink coffee, for example, it’s got to be the strongest cup I can buy. When I work out now, I’m craving for my lungs to burn. When I choose to go dancing, and this is once a month — I am slowing down a bit — it’s an all-night event. And now living in Toronto, when meal time rolls around, I’m looking for something new. Have I eaten that before? Can I find something weird or new, exotic? I need that jolt, please.
I’m going to yoga this morning to mull it over, if I can focus long enough! What do you think? Are we all just restless waiting for the next big thing? Is life a series of these events and what is it that makes you restless if you’re not doing it?